Coming out isn’t just about coming out to other people. It’s also about coming out to yourself. It’s about overcoming the belief that you’re unacceptable. It’s about finding acceptance and pride in who you are.
—Edited by TheFNGee
The final episode of Quaranthings the Series is all about truth and acceptance. From the moment Rocky rips the quarantine pass in half so that Judah cannot leave, it’s apparent that they are about to come face-to-face with each other and themselves.
Rocky spins an empty bottle, and it points at Judah. “Truth or dare?”Rocky asks.
“Truth,” Judah replies.
“Why is it so complicated to love for people like us?” Rocky asks.
Judah looks at Rocky and answers, “Before this moment in our lives, we were hiding our heart’s truths. So basically, they’ve just started beating.”
The writers behind Quaranthings have a beautiful way with words, and the actors delivering the dialogue have a fantastic way of making the viewers feel it.
In a heartbreaking moment, we discover Rocky has never truly come to terms with himself. He’s even had suicidal thoughts. In the past, his mother discovered messages on his cellphone, indicating that he was gay, and while she wanted to express her love and acceptance, Rocky was not at a place to do the same. His mother died while they were still arguing.
Judah and Rocky have two very different coming out stories. Judah accepts himself but doesn’t find immediate acceptance from his grandmother. Rocky finds acceptance in his mother but is unable to accept himself. After Rocky’s mother passes away, he becomes a prisoner of his own guilt. Why should he be happy when the one person who supported him the most is gone?
Judah points the empty bottle at Rocky. “Truth or dare?”
“Dare,” Rocky replies.
Judah asks Rocky to post on Rocky’s social media wall, but Rocky cannot do it. Judah sits on the floor of their balcony. He’s surprisingly calm, which is a nice change from the anger we saw in him in the previous episode. There’s maturity in the way he speaks to Rocky. I like this Judah. Although I know what Judah’s looking for is something Rocky may be incapable of giving, it’s nice to see Judah helping Rocky open up.
“Truth or dare?” Rocky asks.
“Truth,” Judah replies.
Rocky looks at him. “How did you know you were ready to come out to your grandmother? Your mom? Your family?”
“I just felt it,” Judah replies.
“You’re lucky,” Rocky says.
The divide between Rocky and Judah has always been there. They are two different men from two different worlds who have similar feelings for each other. They don’t truly understand each other’s lives. For Rocky, coming out is impeded by familial and financial responsibility, as well as his own insecurities. He lives in a harsh world of expectations. I know because I’ve lived this life; I felt it to my core when he pointed out that even though he knows having money doesn’t solve everything, it still offers solutions.
The game of truth or dare concludes with the two of them separating. Judah wants an all or nothing relationship while Rocky isn’t sure what he wants. He simply likes Judah.
What happens next is beautiful.
It isn’t beautiful because the next scene is happy.
It’s beautiful because it’s honest.
After a short exchange of text messages in which Judah tells Rocky that he really wanted to love him, Rocky suddenly appears in Judah’s room, holding the empty bottle.
“Truth or dare?” Rocky says.
“Whichever,” Judah mumbles.
Rocky chooses ‘dare’ before climbing onto Judah’s bed to hug him.
I never thought I’d find a character being called a happy regret romantic, but my heart fluttered when Judah tells Rocky this. It fluttered even more, when Judah makes Rocky promise to find him when he’s ready.
There is acceptance, and there is acceptance. Patience is a form of acceptance, especially between two people at different stages of self-approval.
Judah and Rocky spend the night together in a tight embrace. No sex. Just the two of them holding each other.
The next morning while eating breakfast, Rocky discovers that Judah is moving back in with his grandmother rather than staying with Glenn. The news fills Rocky with joy. Judah’s decision to go to Lolly proves he really is willing to wait for Rocky.
Being willing to wait for someone is a very powerful thing.
I admit it; I cried when Rocky came out to his father. Knowing the guilt he suffers over his mother and his own personal issues with himself; this scene gutted me. I knew by the way Rocky’s father supported Rocky’s sister that his father would approve of him. It wasn’t Rocky’s family’s approval that was so powerful. It was Rocky’s approval of himself. Knowing Judah is willing to wait for him is the catalyst Rocky needed to take the next step.
In conclusion, Quaranthings the Series is a journey that should not be missed. This show honestly took me by surprise. I did not go into it with high expectations. However, by the end of the series, it not only exceeded the expectations I did have for it, but it also ended up on my favorites list. The writing is beautiful, and the dialogue is poignant. The show opened up discussions about coming out, bisexuality, and self-approval.
I love that Quaranthings gave us two very different men and two very different stories that intertwined beautifully.
My heart is full.
Thank you, Quaranthings, for a wonderful series. Thank you, Royce, and thank you, Kyo, for bringing Rocky and Judah to life in a truly remarkable way. It won’t be forgotten. Watch it. Experience it. Remember it.
I dare you.
Series Rating: 4.5 out of 5 stars. [See our Review Guide]